stared at the blank page for like an hour, thinking about what to blog about before writing this
haha finally decided to break the hiatus imposed upon myself
well, i was just lazy to blog so yea :P

have been doing shit lately
went for a few outings,
okay will start from where i left off

Aug-Oct, 2012
well, nothing much...
studied (or tried to)
prelims was pretty screwed lol
its funny, my results: A B C D E
yea, one for each subject tested haha
my mom joked that i got a royal flush
but in the end, i guess its still ok?
idk

Nov, 2012'
A level period!
it will be an exam i wont forget,
especially since its the one exam which i felt least prepared for...
screwed up quite a bit for math paper 1 ><
really dreaming throughout the exam sigh
GP was screwed up too...
can only write 4 of the 12 essay questions :/
physics was stupidly hard, especially paper 2 and 3
chem was ok? aiming for an A or B, hopefully an A,
i really dont wanna let my chem tutor down
she has really been super nice to my class, even though we always joke around and screw up our exams, she really didnt give up on us,
really one of the nicest tutors ive met, like when she helped me during the practice for SPA cause she knew i was really too tired and stressed out from choir
well, i guess all my tutors are good up to now, maybe except Bell, my GP tutor
they are really dedicated lah, not to mention good at whatever they teach
im really lucky to have such great tutors for jc,
even though the road was tough, it was nice to have people who know the road to show you the way

after physics paper 1, my class guys went straight for badminton
its kind of an addiction for us since our last game taught in PE was badminton
played from about 4 till 6, then went straight to somerset for movie with the Noobs :)
i think one of my greatest rewards from jc would be this clique called the noobs
as to why we call ourselves noobs, well, i forgot but still, its nice to be noob sometimes huh?
we wanted to watch pitch perfect but in the end settled for Argo, a movie on some hostage thingy, apparently its real haha
it was really quite good, the entire movie, especially the last part when the hostages got into the plane and the captors were pursuing them

Dec 2012-Now
well, nothing much, went for caroling again, it was good to be back in choir :)
went for a few outings, like to send Yun Yi off with the Noobs
it was kinda impromptu cause Glenn last minute planned

then there was class BBQ,
it was awesome, though some last minute pangseh or didnt show :/
Ben Loo was quite pissed at Daniel and Gerald for doing so
i really think Gerald is going overboard sometimes
but oh well, its not my business that he choose hoes over bros and willingly get manipulated by her i guess
i really love my class though.
ive realized that it was my class that stood by me when all the stress from studying and competitions were building up
and despite being so distant due to choir, they will always think of us for outings and such
theyre awesome :)

next came choir chalet
was quite boring, though it was nice to catch up with them
stayover was a total blur cause we mainly just joked around and watched random shows on starworld
then i slept at 6am and woke up around 11
yeah, 6 and i just got KOed haha
totally just lied down and slept like a log cause by 6 i was really 99% dead

so applied for NTU through their early admission
i guess im just trying my luck and hope to get it as a form of recognition
applied for mathematical sciences as a first choice
well, i guess its pretty obvious why i chose that since it has been my favourite subject since young
and many of my math teachers through my educational journey have sparked my interest in it so yea

oh yeah, Vivian (another noob) is trying to audition for 'the final one', this new competition on channel 5
her expectations really too high lol
will post her audition vid if i get the chance to get a copy lol
so the noobs are now just trying to boost her confidence and make her go for it
i personally think she can make it, at least through the video audition round
she can actually rival some of the Youtube stars
and believe me, cause ive been listening to alot lately
my latest addictions are Alex Goot, Against the current (ATC), Sam Tsui and Christina Grimme,
especially the lead singer of ATC, she's only 17 but she has a real good voice
sigh, what am i doing with my life

ok so i got nothing to do now haha
well, going to sung yang's house later to get some stuff
and meeting Don tmr for bowling
which reminds me, should really meet up with sec school friends!
by the time i enlist i guess

was trying to read some blogs when i realised many of the links there are either just left untouched or deleted by their owners
i dont think i will ever delete this blog,
cause it is part of who i was, my past
and i will walk down memory's lane and re-read all my posts again in future
i mean i already do that once in a while and its really great that i see myself growing
and well, some things did stay the same haha

going into deeper stuff, ive been thinking: whats success?
do we all wanna be successful in life
the latter was a question posted to me on job training for sales (really not cut out for it :P)
and it led me to think about the former
well, its good to finally have something to think about cause i feel myself becoming more and more stoopid haha
success... i think its really relative for many of us but to me, success is not getting a 5 figure paycheck, or owning your own successful business
i think success should be less materialistic,
it should come from life's simplest things
i think success should be living to do what you love, and having a happy family
thats what success is to me at this point of my life
i mean, the monetary aspect is just an added bonus, but the most important thing is still our emotional and social well-being

i think im writing this to remind future me that there was once when i thought this way,
i mean, all of us change,
but i guess its healthy to remind yourself of who you are, and were, once in a while

ok long, long post
will begin to write more often, though i still dont think anybody comes here anymore
but i still can get like 1 pageview ocassionally
so yea
ok bb, off to lunch and to Sung yang's house